When Ashley met Andy pt. 5

Getting ready to go back

Lucas's first cardiologist appointment came up a month after we got home. I was so nervous going into it. I had no idea what to expect and was scared we had done something wrong. The appointment went great. The doctor was pleased with the way his heart looked/sounded and we didn't change anything. PHEW! That one was easy. That afternoon we also had a hearing test scheduled because his left ear failed the newborn screen. That one was harder because we weren't supposed to let our 4 week old sleep for 4 hours beforehand and not eat for 3 of those. That was one fussy baby. We got there and did that test as well, he passed it, too :)
At the end of July, I had posted something on my facebook about him being blue often and hating that I couldn't change places with my baby. Well, Andy's mom found out and came to be all "nurse" to me, even though she hadn't been a nurse in at least 10 years and never worked for a cardiologist or anything heart related. I was in a bad mood that day, so before she could get her two cents in, I told her like it was. She hadn't ever worked for a cardiologist, she wasn't there when we talked to ours, and she didn't know what we were told to look for or when to worry. She got mad at me and stormed out the door saying I would regret saying that to her (to this day, I still don't).
Our next appointment was scheduled for 8/1. I went alone with Lucas to this one because Andy couldn't get time off of work because he was still new. That one wasn't as fun. I told him the issues with the feeding, sleeping, and blueness and he sent us for an impromtu ECHO. After the ECHO was done, he said that given the way it looks, he wanted to go ahead and schedule a heart cath to look around inside. That was like a real smack to the face- I knew it would happen, but I wasn't ready for it just yet.
That Tuesday 8/2, there was a knock at the front door. We normally don't answer the front door but something told me that I needed to this time. I opened it, the lady asked if I was Ashley then introduced herself and asked if she could come in. It was a woman from CPS! I guess that's my payback, huh? She did the interview and looked around the house and other then saying we shouldn't sleep with Lucas- it wasn't against the law though- there was nothing wrong. The case was dropped. I have refused to talk to Andy's mom since that day. She will never see Lucas again other then maybe pictures. That was really low and uncalled for. You can call me horrible names to my faces every day of my life, but don't dare say I'm a bad mom. The next  day I left because I was scared to be in my own house- I was petrified she would show up and start more drama. I went to my grandma's with Lucas and we spent the night. I collected myself and came home the next day.

The day after the cath

His heart cath was on 8/16. I had no idea what to expect, but we went in with our heads up. We handed him over and went to the waiting room after getting some breakfast. I couldn't really eat though- I was a nervous wreck! We were told it would take 3-4 hours so we were shocked when they called after 2 saying they were done and he  would be in recovery in a few minutes. The trying to not wake up and wake up at the same time Lucas broke my heart! He just moaned and cried for hours. His cardiologist came up and talked to us- I don't really remember much of what he said though, because once the words ready for surgery came out I shut down. How was I going to go through that?! He also mentioned that Lucas's heart rate was a little high so they were going to start him on a beta blocker. We had to stay overnight to make sure nothing went wrong there. We were happy to go home the next day.
Pt 6 to come later :)